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So... I don't actually know where to start. How about that both my psychiatrist and doctor have decided that monitoring my weight is now a needed thing? I'll admit I'm not the weight I probably should be, but to have both of them treat me like I didn't know anything I was talking about was...

Okay, here's the thing: I have always been overweight, and it's varied in how much for a while. It's just a thing on both sides of my family for females, and I make sure to eat healthily and exercise. It's just... nothing happens. The doctor has actual evidence of this, and yet she still got on at me, giving me contradicting statements in the same breath. I just, ugh, I can't really deal with it. I'm wondering if this is part of the reason I've just been bursting into tears pretty much every day this week. And it's only Wednesday.

I've been feeling so bleh lately, that I just want to go and buy myself something for at least that brief moment of happy feeling you get. I've got my eye on a couple of Charlie Bears, and at least two Steiff bears. I can't even afford one Steiff bear! I'm hoping this want feeling will die down a bit, but it's very active right now and I can't really deal with it.

Mostly though, I'm just tired. Might nap before the groceries arrive. Thinking of doing a little 'Life of Action Figures' skit thing later. We'll see.