werepuppyblack: (Darkwing Duck is not convinced by this p)
The Grimm Squeaker


Today has been a bit of a day. I am currently feeling a lot of pain in my jaw/mouth area because I had to go and get a filling replaced this morning in an emergency appointment. That was... not a lot of fun, I'll be honest. I had to take some of my meds to make sure I didn't go into a panic attack in the middle of it all. I am very much not good with needles and since they needed to numb my mouth... well, you get the picture. Long story short, it's been a day. I'm really glad I've got the Galavant soundtrack, because that kept me sane. Attend the tale indeed.

Brother Boy decided to remind me that it's 10 days to my birthday and I am just very "..." about it all. It's like I'm not really looking forward to it? It just seems to be in the middle of appointments for most of my family and it's just a bit of a hassle. I have asked for something... pretty special off the parents and I am kind of kicking myself for doing it, because it was pricey and I should know better. Brother Boy told me he found a Charlie Bear he knew I was looking for at about £20 less than it should be. He's good at finding deals when he wants.

The immediate following Saturday is Glasgow Film and Comic Con (formerly Collectormania Glasgow) and I'm pulling out the Susan Sto Helit cosplay for it. The Grimm Squeaker shall be joining me on this one. I still need to book tickets for MCM but I really cannot be arsed right now. It's a lot to do with how severely my mood has dipped this year, so it makes the whole thing a bit up in the air. Will need to do it soon, on the door prices are ridiculous.

Apparently Bat Out of Hell: the Musical is getting a cast recording album. They took over the instagram for London Theatre and the first couple of stories were in the recording studios. I... actually really want that? I don't know when it'll be due out - I'm figuring in time for the show hitting Toronto - but it is something I want. For my issues with the show - plot, what plot - the vocals were not among them.

Erm... Can't really think what else to say. I'm tired, though. Probably go watch something till I can go to bed and be sure of sleeping more than a couple of hours.
werepuppyblack: (Batman Beyond vs Spider-Girl)
So... my nightmares are back, and worse than they were. Well, if you wake up screaming/crying and your Dad decides that even though you're almost 25, you're going to go sleep in beside your Mum like you're 5? Yeah, I'd say they were worse than before. Mum had to keep waking me up too, 'cause I kept calling out for people to stop... something in my sleep. She said I wasn't clear, and I don't really remember being woke up at all. Last time she really woke me out of a sleep was when we were sharing the twin room in London in May, and I'd been tossing and turning so much she got worried I was going to fall out of the single bed. (I didn't, but I did manage to whack my head off of the wall a good couple of times. Which... ow)

I'm see the psychiatrist on the 3rd, so all of this will be getting told to a medical professional who is - in theory - there to help me get better. It doesn't really help that some of the extended family seem to be of the opinion that nothing is wrong with me, and all that's really needed is for me to go out and get a job. My GP has advised against this until we get the right meds / the right help for the mental health team, but apparently what the doctor suggests isn't good enough for these family members. No, they know best, and they say a job is the best cure! 

... It just hurts to know that they seem to think so little of me. Just because they only see photos of me on good days (convention photos - I've usually taken all my meds, and before/after pics, have my friends dragging me to have a seat and a drink and a rest to make sure I'm okay for another hour or so) and actually only see me on good days. Well, relatively good days. ... Good hours? IDK.

Talking of conventions: just waiting on my cloak arriving for my Susan Sto Helit cosplay, and I've got everything together for my Stitch cosplay. I've been thinking I'd like to cosplay Wonder Woman at some point, but I don't really have the right body shape for that. Mentioned it on Tumblr, and got reminded that Diana herself would probably support me in the cosplay because all women are awesome to her.

That's a nice thought to end on actually. Wonder Woman thinks you're awesome.
werepuppyblack: (All the World's A Stage)
So, this one will be a little odder compared to a lot of my memes, cause this one is simpler. What influences you? Now, as a lot of you will know, I am a fantasy and sci fi geek, but there were a lot of influences on my life that led to my current tastes and styles so ... let's evaluate, shall we?

influences under cut )

... I actually can't think what else to add right now. But there you go, some of what makes up my many influences. I'll probably add to this if anymore come to me.