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So... my nightmares are back, and worse than they were. Well, if you wake up screaming/crying and your Dad decides that even though you're almost 25, you're going to go sleep in beside your Mum like you're 5? Yeah, I'd say they were worse than before. Mum had to keep waking me up too, 'cause I kept calling out for people to stop... something in my sleep. She said I wasn't clear, and I don't really remember being woke up at all. Last time she really woke me out of a sleep was when we were sharing the twin room in London in May, and I'd been tossing and turning so much she got worried I was going to fall out of the single bed. (I didn't, but I did manage to whack my head off of the wall a good couple of times. Which... ow)

I'm see the psychiatrist on the 3rd, so all of this will be getting told to a medical professional who is - in theory - there to help me get better. It doesn't really help that some of the extended family seem to be of the opinion that nothing is wrong with me, and all that's really needed is for me to go out and get a job. My GP has advised against this until we get the right meds / the right help for the mental health team, but apparently what the doctor suggests isn't good enough for these family members. No, they know best, and they say a job is the best cure! 

... It just hurts to know that they seem to think so little of me. Just because they only see photos of me on good days (convention photos - I've usually taken all my meds, and before/after pics, have my friends dragging me to have a seat and a drink and a rest to make sure I'm okay for another hour or so) and actually only see me on good days. Well, relatively good days. ... Good hours? IDK.

Talking of conventions: just waiting on my cloak arriving for my Susan Sto Helit cosplay, and I've got everything together for my Stitch cosplay. I've been thinking I'd like to cosplay Wonder Woman at some point, but I don't really have the right body shape for that. Mentioned it on Tumblr, and got reminded that Diana herself would probably support me in the cosplay because all women are awesome to her.

That's a nice thought to end on actually. Wonder Woman thinks you're awesome.